Wednesday, June 11, 2008

If Heaven Had Skylights

I was sitting at the computer the other day thinking about Lindsay and missing her. I then began wishing that heaven had a skylight so that I could look up and see what she is doing. Or simply hear her talk to me and how she has grown. I am sure she is having a great time playing and meeting new friends her age. I bet all our grandparents are taking care of her and telling her stories. We miss Lindsay so much and look forward to one day having Jesus putting her back into our arms. I miss her hugs, her smile, her laughter, and everything about her. Mrs. Jager has told us to always keep Lindsay's memory alive and always talk about her in the present not in the past. I have been trying to do that every time I talk about her. God has been showing us how her little life is changing people and that is exciting to see. To know that our baby girl has touched so many lives and she is still doing that is amazing. Dad W told me the other day that Lindsay's book is still being written.
So if heaven had skylights I hope she is watching us and smiling. Lindsay, Mommy misses you more than you know and I love you so much!


Anonymous said...


Thinking of you everyday. thanks for updating the blog. I love to check it everyday. Your family has been such an inspiration to many people. Thank you.

The Cole Family

Anonymous said...

Thank you sharing this. I think of Lindsay so often and also wonder what she is doing--are there dirty faces in Heaven? :) I watch that slide show every so often and I love the food faces and tools!!

I never saw Lindsay Bear here but she will always be in my heart. I will know her by the baby blues and the smile.

Thank you for sharing her with us and for sharing your love.

Praying for you often--

Love, hugs & prayers,

Anonymous said...

Laura I think of you and your family everyday and pray that our Lord will continue to show His amazing Love and Mercy toward you. After reading what you wrote I can be assured that God in His gracious kindness holds you in His Hand. We prayed in our care group last night that the Lord would show you His mercy and give you lots of hugs as you go through this time of empty arms and what would have been a celebration of Lindsay's 2nd year of life with you on Friday June 14th. This Friday will be a different kind of celebration....a tiny little girl who is changing lives through her short life. May you feel the love of our Lord through Jon, Tanner, your family and those who you never met but who hold you up before our Heavenly Father so that He can shower His grace upon you.
Judy Silverstein

Anonymous said...

Hi Guys,

I heard a speaker say today. God is more concerned about donation than duration. Your Lindsay has make a great donation to the cause of Christ. I'm still praying for you.
Ken Akselsen

Anonymous said...

Your post reminded me of the comfort I got from one particular saying on a card I received, after I lost my daughter, Kali: "Maybe they are not just stars, but our loved ones looking down on us, letting us know they are happy". While I know God set the stars in the sky, I took comfort in thinking that those stars could remind me of the light of Heaven and the happiness shared there by our loved ones. I look up at those stars sometimes and just talk to Kali.

With Lindsay's birthday approaching, I know you will face a difficult time. I hope and pray you find a way to celebrate Lindsay's special day in a way that brings your family peace. We cried so much the first year (and many other years), but we baked a cake, lit the candles, and said "Happy Birthday" to Kali. We continue to celebrate in much the same way every year, and it helps to keep Kali in the present with us. I hope you will find what helps you most and celebrates Lindsay in a way that brings you comfort.

Thinking about and praying for you, Jon, and Tanner.
Nancy Brown

Anonymous said...

Laura, Jon and Tanner,
We are on our way. Car is packed and we are heading North. See you if a few hours. Can't wait to see all of you and give you lots of hugs. Lindsay, I wish I could see you too but know God will make a way for you to spend your special day with all of us. Miss you tons and love you more than you will ever know. I love you very much.
Love, Granny

Anonymous said...

Good Morning,
Smiling through my tears that Laura's folks will be there for this special weekend.

God bless you all in a special way as you celebrate Lindsay Bear on her special day and Jon and Grandpa on theirs.

May you all receive strength from each other's love, tears, memories,
hugs and prayers--whatever you do this weekend!

Love, hugs, & prayers,

Anonymous said...

Hi Laura.I think of you and Lindsay every day. You have touched my heart more than you know. Know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers constantly. I pray that God gives you His peace this weekend, and that you share heppy moments with your family.
Stephanie Ireland

Anonymous said...

Laura, thanks for your post. I still check it everyday and have been so encouraged to hear how God is using Lindsay in so many people's lives. I am especially praying for all of you as Lindsay's birthday approaches on Saturday. I often wonder what they do to celebrate birthdays in heaven, but I'm sure it's more of a celebration than any of us can imagine!! I will pray that God makes you feel Lindsay's presence in a very special way. After my dad died, I started noticing that whenever our family went somewhere or did something that my dad would have enjoyed, a beautiful butterfly would always fly past us. At first, we laughed about it, but three years later, it still happens - in fact, our kids marched in a parade this Saturday - my dad LOVED parades and would have had a front-row seat - as we finished marching, the most beautiful yellow-swallowtail landed at my feet! It may be just a coincidence, but it brings me a lot of joy as I firmly feel my dad's presence and know that he is still enjoying his children and grandchildren! I pray that God will bring you the same kind of joy knowing that Lindsay is still very much part of your lives and always will be. God bless you all.

Julie in CT