Sunday, October 6, 2013

Back Up And Running

Well I am back and happy to be able to blog again. A lot has happened since I last blogged and I will share more about that later on. I just wanted to let you all know (if there is still anyone that checks this) that I will be writing again. Thanks to a friend we now have a new computer which is way easier to type on then my phone. I have had lots on my mind to share and can't wait to share with you. (none of these include a new baby in case you were wondering) :).

We are all doing well and enjoying our new life here in MN. It's fun to be back here and reconnect with family and friends again. God opened doors for us and provided for us as always. Thanks to those who still pray for us and who still continue to remember our Lindsay Bear. 

Before I go I do have one little story to share about our girl. The other night we made a trip to the new Costco that just opened up. I always carry a spare pacifier in the diaper bag in case one is needed for a unhappy child. The one that is in there is one of the last ones that Lindsay had and I think even used. Sydney had been using it in the store and when we were ready to leave I couldn't find it. When we got out to the car I asked Jon if he knew where it was and he didn't. I know it's just a pacifier but for some reason I needed to find it. So I made him go back to where he left our cart to see if it still was in there. Thankfully it was and I was so glad to have found it but after that the tears wouldn't stop. I kept thinking how silly this was that I was crying over it but knew it was one of the last things she used and I couldn't bring myself to not find it or have it with me. Then I got to thinking about how much I missed her and how much it still hurts. But then a little voice called out at me from the back seat saying Mom. When I turned around to see Sydney using this same pacifier smiling at me from behind it, I knew that I would be ok and that Lindsay will always be with us no matter what. 

Always thinking of you Lindsay Bear!!!


Lisa said...

(((hugs))) Your post brought a lump to my throat and tears to my eyes. Know that you are thought of so often and prayed for even more.

Love you!

Phoebe said...

That's a sweet story, Laura! I think of Lindsay often--especially at milestones like Regan's birthday (which just passed). I talked with her again to Regan around her birthday, explaining that Lindsay was the same age as she was except that her birthday was sooner. So thankful that you have the precious gifts of your other children to comfort you when the grief comes.