Well today is another anniversary date for us to remember. This time last year Jon and I were in the emergency room waiting to find out if our baby was o.k. Little did we know that God had already taken this little one home to heaven with him. I was 10 weeks and the baby was only 7 weeks. I can remember sitting there speechless when the doctor told us the news. I was kind of processing it in my mind before he came in and knowing that now my focus was to be on Lindsay and what she was about to go through. Our hearts were sad but I couldn't wait to go and pick up the kids and just hug them especially Lindsay. After we picked them up we headed to our hotel in Boston to settle in for the night. Dad, Mom, Zach came to our room that night to spend some time with us. I was so tired by then that my Mom had to give Lindsay her bath with that surgical soap we were given. Poor Lindsay cried the whole time because it was rough. Granny did a great job of getting it done fast and then Lindsay was happy again. After they left we settled in for the night and dreading what was to come in the morning. Jon and I had to get up with Lindsay several times to change diapers that were runny. When I think back to this time my heart just aches. But we can't change what God had already planned. We can look back at those special times we had with her and rejoice that God gave us those moments.
I wasn't going to write today but this afternoon I felt I needed to. I think I will post again tomorrow if I can.
Just think that Lindsay got to meet her 2 siblings in heaven before we did. I know that she is taking care of them like a big sister would.
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As I sit here tonight and think of Lindsay as I have been all day (and many other days, weeks, months before), I wonder what it is like in heaven as they remember what Jesus did so many years ago on the cross of Calvary. I am so thankful that God sent Jesus to earth, then in such a short time, had Him die in my place on a wooden cross to take away the sin of the world (mine especially). Thank you Lord that on that 3rd day You arose from the grave that I and all who believe will be able to spend eternity with You. Thank you for making it possible for me (us) to see Lindsay again soon, and spend eternity together. Laura, Jon and Tanner you are in my prayers and on my mind. May the Lord grant you peace as you (us) walk through these days. Thanks for giving us so many wonderful, funny, silly face, happy pictures of Lindsay Bear that we can see and know that she is whole and with Jesus.
Love to all,
Mom/Granny
As I read your post I can remember what I was feeling the night before surgery. I remember waking up on the morning of the 7th nervous and sad. I can't even imagine what you are feeling. Tonight my prayer is that God fills you with peace and comfort and that over the next few weeks you as a family become closer and are there for each other as you remember Lindsay and all the great memories you have! i know I will be!!
We love you very much!!
~Julie
I couldn't read this yesterday ... very emotional. Have played over in my mind all day yesterday this time last year. I remember sitting in the resturant of the Mass. Turnpike Rest Stop waiting for the call from Jon about your trip to the ER. We prayed like crazy that all would be well, and we knew that either way, the Lord would win. How our hearts ached when you called with the news that the Lord had other plans for the new baby.
I didn't think we'd ever get to the hotel. It was the longest day ... well not really -- today would be the longest day ... I remember walking into your hotel room and all the emotions -- your sadness and grief and then seeing Lindsay knowing that the next day was her big surgery.
I can still hear her screaming in the tub as Mom scrubbed her with that dumb soap. After she was all cleaned up, she came flying out of the bathroom so that I could hold her while we watched the planes take off and land from the airport. Little did I know that this would be the very last time that I would get to hold her in my arms. It was my very last Lindsay Bear hug.
Like Mom, I am thankful for the empty tomb that reminds us that there is life beyond the grave.
I am also thankful for the new life that God is forming in you! This new baby is a gift from God! We can't wait to meet her ... oops!
I love you, Jon, Laura and Tanner. Deut. 31:8 is still true!
Well here we are. Today is the one year anniversary of Lindsay Bear's surgery. It is hard to believe that 365 days have passed already- some days longer and more painful than others I know. It seems like yesterday that Lindsay came back from the Children's Hospital Boston garden smiling in the yellow push-cart with a tiny purple-blue flower tucked behind her ear. The picture of Lindsay in her red dress standing proud in front of the Christmas tree holds a special place hanging over my desk. Lindsay is gone but never forgotten.
Jon, Laura, Tanner, Bill & Jan, my thoughts are with you on this difficult day.
Sincerely,
Julia Harris
Lindsay's Nurse
Have been praying for all of you this morning. Remembering back to how praying for Lindsay changed my prayer life. Also thinking about how another death, that of Jesus, changed my life. So thankful for that! And that with my sins forgiven, I have the promise of Heaven.
Your posts and pictures this year have brought BIG smiles and many tears but it is a journey that I feel blessed to have followed.
Thank you to the whole family for sharing your hearts and love.
Love, hugs and prayers,
Miriam
Jon, Laura and Tanner:
Thinking of you and praying for all of you today as this is another anniversary that you must face. I remember last year waiting to hear how Lindsay's surgery went and being so far away from you all. You all have been an inspiration this past year with all you have been through and how your faith has sustained you. You will never know how many people you have touched. We love you all very much and I hope that you can feel our thoughts and prayers today.
Love to all,
Aunt Jeanne and Uncle Mark
Laura, Jon, and Tanner:
I've prayed for you over the last few weeks knowing that one-year anniversaries would be coming up. I can't begin to imagine how difficult it must be for you to think back over the events of last year. Yet, you have continually reflected and spoken of God's love and faithfulness in your lives and that is awesome. I will continue to pray that the Lord will give you peace, comfort, and encouragement in the days and weeks ahead...as well as many precious memories of a little blue-eyed girl. Lindsay has touched many, many lives. I'm looking forward to hearing stories about the Lindsay baskets and how the Lord uses them.
With love, hugs, and prayers,
Susan
Thank you for sharing those special memories with us.
Amy Goodwin~
You've been on my mind a lot this week as I think back to this time last year. Thank you Lord for the memories & that gift that you have of your precious Lindsay Bear. We love you guys dearly & we will continue to lift you in prayer as you face more anniversaries the next two months & reflect back to "well, this happened today & tomorrow..." Just heard Damaris singing "In the Presence of Jehovah"... I'm grateful that Lindsay is in His presence... and thankfor to HIM who holds all of our tomorrows! Love ya--
Brian & Donna
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